I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a long while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I will be doing this for the wrong reason; as an easy way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. a course in miracles What I’m about to talk about wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling the mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of something that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I’d in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents’reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.
You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.